Psalm 59

I feel so torn. TORN. Tempted.

I know in my head all the good reasons why not letting the tempter get to me. It´s almost like chocolate: I usually don´t even want it. The churning in the stomach, the bad skin and the gaining weight is just as real as the instant satisfaction it gives. Yet sometimes, I get a craving, and it just takes over. All my reasons, all my strategy, all my love for taking care of my body gets into a war with the the lust for tons and tons of the sweetness.

I don´t know how to walk away in those times. When I´m strong; it´s okay. I almost condemn those who are not strong. But when I get into a storm of weakness; I´m all like "Screw that!"

God... Whoever my enemies are. The true enemy; remove him from me. Especially these days when it´s storming against me. Help me away from temptation; cause I can´t handle it on my own. Take the enemy by its tale and throw him miles and miles away from me. Cause I cannot stand not being safe in you, with you. And you know, that now, his voice is more alluring than yours.