Psalm 61

God. You love me. But first you love yourself. But in that love for your self, you just have to love me, right? Please remember me, don´t let me go; pursue me. I need you to. Lead me on the road of salvation. I can´t even fake thinking about leading others right now; just help me. If you want me, help me. Do not reject me, even though I have not been your most faithful servant or anything. I´m just so exhausted, so angry, so sad, so tired... How can one be amazingly faithful in times like this without ... fainting? Or giving up?

Psalm 60

"Grant us help against the foe,

for human help is worthless,

With God we shall do valiantly;

it is he who will tread down our foes"

Psalm 59

I feel so torn. TORN. Tempted.

I know in my head all the good reasons why not letting the tempter get to me. It´s almost like chocolate: I usually don´t even want it. The churning in the stomach, the bad skin and the gaining weight is just as real as the instant satisfaction it gives. Yet sometimes, I get a craving, and it just takes over. All my reasons, all my strategy, all my love for taking care of my body gets into a war with the the lust for tons and tons of the sweetness.

I don´t know how to walk away in those times. When I´m strong; it´s okay. I almost condemn those who are not strong. But when I get into a storm of weakness; I´m all like "Screw that!"

God... Whoever my enemies are. The true enemy; remove him from me. Especially these days when it´s storming against me. Help me away from temptation; cause I can´t handle it on my own. Take the enemy by its tale and throw him miles and miles away from me. Cause I cannot stand not being safe in you, with you. And you know, that now, his voice is more alluring than yours.

Psalm 58

I don´t like these pleas by David. He´s basically asking you God to rip MY teeth out. Cause I´m often "wicked" compared to David. Aaah, David! We`re gonna have a little chat one day! Unless I´ll en up in the place where there´s gnashing of teeth. God better have kept my teeth then, or less I won´t be able to join the gnash choir!

psalm 57

"Until the destroying storms pass by."

Will I take refuge under your wings?

Help me to stand. For I so easily break. I so easily fall. I cannot say that my heart is steadfast.

I again want things you don´t want.

Give me a desire to do your will. I beg you. For the storm is here again. And I don´t know how to keep standing.

Instead I go with it. I dance it into growth. What mercy is there for me?

Psalm 56

God, do you collect my tears in your bottle? Do you record them on your scroll? It´s one of those things I´ve heard so many times. But the verse doesn´t actually say that you do. It´s a plea, and a question if they are.

So I ask... Are they? What about those tears I cry caused by grief caused by my own foolishness and my own sin? How does this work God? Can you comfort me and be on my side, wiping my tears when it´s a result of evil against you? Would that be just?

My questions seems to be never ending. I wish your answers were as many.

Psalm 55

But I will trust in you.

Psalm 54

Wow, I am in huge need of grace. I can do nothing to please you. I am far from the perfect child. Yet, you love rescuing me. Again and again.

I love you!

Psalm 53

Not one does good.

Not one.

I am so sorry Father.

I wish I could say, Yes I do! Look at me!

But I can´t.

Psalm 52

Okay, so I don´t want to be one of those who will be cut down because I love evil too much. So all those things that I still love that you hate, please make me hate it. Cause you know I can´t pretend. All I can do is fight so that I don´t deliberitaly sin; and that´s just so exhausting!! It´s not meant to be like that, is it?

Make me love what you love, and hate what you hate. See my willingness; for that is all I can give.

Amen

Psalm 51

That´s my prayer: Create in me a pure heart of God. Cause I´m so not able to clean it myself. I need you to cleanse me every day. Wipe away all the stains on my heart.

You´re merciful!!!! Wohoo!

Psalm 50

Haha, I must laugh at my self... And people. We are sooo foolish! It really hit me reading verse 12 and 13, God saying: " If I were hungry, I would not tell you, for the world and all that is in it is mine. Do I eat the flesh of bulls, or drink the blood of goats?"

No, you for sure don´t. You are bigger than any sacrifice... So what makes us not able to give you our hearts again?

Psalm 49

Why should I fear?

Right now... I don´t have the amount of money for SBS that I thought I had. A tiny miscalculation. But the way God provided for me to come here was amazing. I´ve never seen or experienced God provide like that. So why should I worry about it now? Shouldn´t I just be able to rest?

There are so many reasons I am here. God wants me to be rooted in Him, God wants me to gain deeeper understanding, receive wisdom, get closer to His heart; see what he sees and pass it on to others. Still, this fear sneaks up on me: "O no, what if I have fallen in too many areas recently for God to provide for me!" But that´s nonesense!! If I have fallen in "too" many areas, That´s just another reason why God would NOT send me home.

Okay. That was comforting. My own little comfort-food for the day.

Thank you papa. You are my provider, and I am looking forward to see how you´ll provide this time. Oh yeah!

Psalm 48

That you tell the next generation that this is God....

May I be one who passes on the knowledge and love for you Lord to the next generation. You know me God; I don´t even want to be a mom. Really. At least I don´t feel it. But I do want to be one who impacts the next generation. May you be famous through my life. Use me! That´s all that matters Lord.

Psalm 47

We may not always think about honoring and respecting our king, or the government in our countries. There may be other things we pay much closer attention to follow after, and even obey. I know there are many things is my life that I automatically let rule me. Dead things, or people just like myself that has no power. - Other than the power I give them without them even knowing it. What I want is to be more aware of God´s beauty, and let him rule my heart the way other things tend to.

How come I don´t always put him first? I think it´s about knowledge and revelation. If I don´t know how awesome he is, it´s harder to let him rule me. Yes, I should have him rule me no matter what. That´s what we are created for. But striving for it doesn´t help since we are fallen. We´re not perfect. Therefore we need help. I know I do! I need help to see the beauty of my King; cause everytime I do; I want nothing but only follow Him.

Psalm 46

"Be still and know that I am God!"

The verse that has been given to me over and over again; especially in my first year as a Christian. I remember when I was not a Christian; silence was my worst enemy. But as soon as I let God in, I had peace. I finally understood what peace meant! I could be quiet, and there would be no war. Or at least not as before; cause God had won control over me. I had let all my defenses down. He could freely speak to me now.

If everyone... e v e r y o n e could just let their defenses down. An let Him speak. Wow, His kingdom would explode forth.

Psalm 45

I remember standing in church. At that time I was struggling with fear of pride. I felt guilty for raising my arms in the middle of worship. But all I wanted to do was get before the throne. Then in a vision I felt I saw angels holding my arms, leading me to Jesus as I worshiped. Right after the service I read this psalm in my Bible. I to this day have no idea what this psalm really is about. But back then it became a confirmation to me what I had just seen:

"The princess is decked in her chamber with gold-woven robes;

in many-coulered robes she is led to the king;

her virgins, her companions, follow.

With joy and gladness they are led along

as they enter the palace of the king."

(v. 14 - 15)

Psalm 44

"All this has come upon us,

yet we have not forgotten you,

or been false to your covenant.

Or heart has not turned back,

nor have our steps departed from your way,

yet you have broken us in the haunt of jackals,

and covered us with deep darkness"

44: 17-19

"Rouse yourself! Why do you sleep, O Lord?

Awake do not cast us off forever!

Why do you hide your face?

Why do you forget our affliction and oppression?

For we sink down to the dust;

our bodies cling to the ground.

Rise up, come to our help.

Reedeem us for the sake of your steadfast love."

44: 23-26

Psalm 43

I need you God. I´m so messed up. Especially after all happening in Haiti. I´m so sad and angry and so confused. But I do know... deep in my guts. That I can´t run from you. I can´t ignore you. When I run to you again, then you will soothe me. But I don´t want to just yet. I´m offended by all happening. Your love isn´t always how I want it to be. So like a good father does... You let your baby girl run off and be angry without any forced love. For a while.

You and your tough love. Crap. I hate it. But I do love you. Just as all kids love and hate their parents. At the same time. But it´s never really hate. It´s just lack. Lack of sight! Lack of knowledge. I lack so many things. But I don´t want to lack anything of who you are. Anything.

Soothe me. But before you do. Soothe them.

Psalm 42

When I was a child, a very young child, this psalm was my favorite song. Everytime I heard it, it moved something deep inside me. Today that tells me that God and his working spirit is real. How I felt God when I was a kid cannot be ignored nor forgotten.

My soul longs for you God. I may be blinded. I may not always see it´s you I´m searching for. Sometimes I crave something so badly that I grab the first best looking thing that come along. But all those things just makes my craving deeper. Cause it was never "that thing" I wanted. It was you, and all you are.

Psalm 41

I don´t want to forget the poor God. This is something I have been thinking a lot about lately. I don´t think I realize h0w blessed I am. According to others standard, I have nothing. But I know it´s a lie. I have more than enough. I want God to give me good strategies how I can give most effectively, and how I can mobilize and pass on passion for the poor.

"Love thy neighbor is not an advice. It´s a command"

Bono

"God is with the poor! God is with us, if we are with them."

Bono

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L5JxULAX9P4

Psalm 40

"I delight to do your will

Your law is within my heart."

I can say this truthfully today. I want it to last forever!

JESUS, heeelp :D

Psalm 39

The tongue is the most difficult to steer. I don´t want to say one thing, and then do something different. I want to walk what I talk. Help me Holy Spirit to be careful what I say.

Amen

Psalm 38

I am sorry for my sin too. So sorry. And I´m talking about those sins I haven´t been sorry for until now. It´s a new sorry, and a new day!

Psalm 37

If I keep taking delight in you

I can be safe

that you give me

the desires of my heart.

Then I can finally

follow my heart.

It will be your heart.

Psalm 36

Your love is steadfast.

I want my love for you

to be steadfast too.

It hasn´t been.

Psalm 35

Great is the Lord!!

Psalm 34

Taste and see that the Lord is good.

There are a lot of foods out there that taste bad. And a lot that taste good. Some foods taste bad, but are good for your body. Then some foods taste good, but are bad for your body. Some foods taste bad and are bad for your body...

But some foods taste good and are good for your body! I like that one!!

When something is from God, it never just tastes good there and then, but it´s good in the long run. There are times we have to taste something bad as well, but it´s only for us to be "more healthy" in the long run.

Psalm 33

I want to make music for you.

Make me famous,

so I can make you famous.

That´s my prayer. It´s a bold one. But if I don´t dream big, nothing´s gonna happen. You+ve given me so many words. I don´t believe they´re only for me.

Use me, and make yourself known through me, and may others be inspired to do the same.

Amen

Psalm 32

You have forgiven me

much....

MUCH!

I can´t believe how much you´ve forgiven me.

And you will always be ready

to teach me the way I should go.

I am so happy.