Psalm 87

Singers and dancers alike say,

" All my springs are in you."

Lord, All my springs are in you!

Psalm 86

Only a few weeks ago, I was in a state like David is in psalm 86 "...Poor and needy... Cry all day long." (Not that I cried, cause I actually have a hard time being able to cry. It´s been like this for almost a year! So weird, cause I used to cry a lot...) Anyways, God definitely answered my prayers. The night didn´t last for long. Rejoicing came in the morning like crazy! God has been faithful - to once again pull me out of the quicksand, even though it was my own rebellious steps that lead me there. It´s so humbling. And so good. God is truly my father. A good, good father.

Psalm 85

"The Lord will give what is good,

and our land will yield its increase.

Righteousness will go before him,

and will make a path for his steps."

This

is

tue

I know

it

so

well

Psalm 84

MY SOUL LONGS; FAINTS FOR THE COURTS OF THE LORD!

One day feeling your kiss on my soul,

one day having the tingling of your love on my skin,

one day of feeling your heart pound inside my heart

is better than anything else I know

and have ever known

Nothing is more real

nothing is more crazy

nothing is more addicting

than you

When the times of gloom

comes knocking again,

may I not forget these times.

Psalm 83

God, may I never be put to shame. May I never drift away from you ever again. May I be so rooted in you, and so clingy on you, that no matter the wind, we´re just one.

Keep me

for I know you will use me

to bring many

to become

even more clingy

on you

than I

am

Psalm 81

It breaks my heart

how you say:

"I am the Lord your God,

who brought you up out of the land of

Egypt.

Open your mouth wide and I will fill it.

But my people did not listen to my voice;

Israel would not submit to me.

So I gave them over to their stubborn hearts,

to follow their own counsels.

O that my people would not listen to me,

that Israel would not walk in my ways!"

... It makes me cry. Cause right now, it´s just so real to me. You are so passionate, and want soo badly for your people to see how good you are and how good your way is. And we just keep being stubborn. It breaks your heart... that you have to let us go... Over and over again, you let us follow our own ways that you know is gonna ruin us, and in the end lead us away from you forever. But you can´t and won´t hold on to us unless we let you. You don´t want programmed human beings. You want passion. Love. Interaction. Relationship.

God. I love you. And I am so sorry for my stubbornness. I know I probably will have to say sorry a thousand more times, but still; I just don´t want to hurt you again! I want what you want!

Thank you for being so passionate. I love that. I love you. I really do! And I love voicing it, cause for a while I couldn´t! It didn´t feel real. And now, I´m finally there...Back on my knees, broken for you, therefore wholly surrendered. You rock my world.

Psalm 82

God, you ´re the perfect judge. And really, it´s not that hard to understand your justice and the way you judge. I mean, I´m far from all knowing, but from what I know about your reading your word... And yet, we humans are just so poor at justice. And then we say we think you´re unfair! But I don´t believe that anyone really thinks so... I think we just all know you´re right. You´re so wise in your decisions. It´s so perfect. And therefor, we´re scared. Scared of admitting it´s true. Cause if we do, we know we´re responsible.

The sad part is... We´re still responsible, even if we ignore what we know. Maybe especially if we ignore what we know.