Psalm 60

"Grant us help against the foe,

for human help is worthless,

With God we shall do valiantly;

it is he who will tread down our foes"

Psalm 59

I feel so torn. TORN. Tempted.

I know in my head all the good reasons why not letting the tempter get to me. It´s almost like chocolate: I usually don´t even want it. The churning in the stomach, the bad skin and the gaining weight is just as real as the instant satisfaction it gives. Yet sometimes, I get a craving, and it just takes over. All my reasons, all my strategy, all my love for taking care of my body gets into a war with the the lust for tons and tons of the sweetness.

I don´t know how to walk away in those times. When I´m strong; it´s okay. I almost condemn those who are not strong. But when I get into a storm of weakness; I´m all like "Screw that!"

God... Whoever my enemies are. The true enemy; remove him from me. Especially these days when it´s storming against me. Help me away from temptation; cause I can´t handle it on my own. Take the enemy by its tale and throw him miles and miles away from me. Cause I cannot stand not being safe in you, with you. And you know, that now, his voice is more alluring than yours.

Psalm 58

I don´t like these pleas by David. He´s basically asking you God to rip MY teeth out. Cause I´m often "wicked" compared to David. Aaah, David! We`re gonna have a little chat one day! Unless I´ll en up in the place where there´s gnashing of teeth. God better have kept my teeth then, or less I won´t be able to join the gnash choir!

psalm 57

"Until the destroying storms pass by."

Will I take refuge under your wings?

Help me to stand. For I so easily break. I so easily fall. I cannot say that my heart is steadfast.

I again want things you don´t want.

Give me a desire to do your will. I beg you. For the storm is here again. And I don´t know how to keep standing.

Instead I go with it. I dance it into growth. What mercy is there for me?

Psalm 56

God, do you collect my tears in your bottle? Do you record them on your scroll? It´s one of those things I´ve heard so many times. But the verse doesn´t actually say that you do. It´s a plea, and a question if they are.

So I ask... Are they? What about those tears I cry caused by grief caused by my own foolishness and my own sin? How does this work God? Can you comfort me and be on my side, wiping my tears when it´s a result of evil against you? Would that be just?

My questions seems to be never ending. I wish your answers were as many.

Psalm 55

But I will trust in you.

Psalm 54

Wow, I am in huge need of grace. I can do nothing to please you. I am far from the perfect child. Yet, you love rescuing me. Again and again.

I love you!