Psalm 53

Not one does good.

Not one.

I am so sorry Father.

I wish I could say, Yes I do! Look at me!

But I can´t.

Psalm 52

Okay, so I don´t want to be one of those who will be cut down because I love evil too much. So all those things that I still love that you hate, please make me hate it. Cause you know I can´t pretend. All I can do is fight so that I don´t deliberitaly sin; and that´s just so exhausting!! It´s not meant to be like that, is it?

Make me love what you love, and hate what you hate. See my willingness; for that is all I can give.

Amen

Psalm 51

That´s my prayer: Create in me a pure heart of God. Cause I´m so not able to clean it myself. I need you to cleanse me every day. Wipe away all the stains on my heart.

You´re merciful!!!! Wohoo!

Psalm 50

Haha, I must laugh at my self... And people. We are sooo foolish! It really hit me reading verse 12 and 13, God saying: " If I were hungry, I would not tell you, for the world and all that is in it is mine. Do I eat the flesh of bulls, or drink the blood of goats?"

No, you for sure don´t. You are bigger than any sacrifice... So what makes us not able to give you our hearts again?

Psalm 49

Why should I fear?

Right now... I don´t have the amount of money for SBS that I thought I had. A tiny miscalculation. But the way God provided for me to come here was amazing. I´ve never seen or experienced God provide like that. So why should I worry about it now? Shouldn´t I just be able to rest?

There are so many reasons I am here. God wants me to be rooted in Him, God wants me to gain deeeper understanding, receive wisdom, get closer to His heart; see what he sees and pass it on to others. Still, this fear sneaks up on me: "O no, what if I have fallen in too many areas recently for God to provide for me!" But that´s nonesense!! If I have fallen in "too" many areas, That´s just another reason why God would NOT send me home.

Okay. That was comforting. My own little comfort-food for the day.

Thank you papa. You are my provider, and I am looking forward to see how you´ll provide this time. Oh yeah!

Psalm 48

That you tell the next generation that this is God....

May I be one who passes on the knowledge and love for you Lord to the next generation. You know me God; I don´t even want to be a mom. Really. At least I don´t feel it. But I do want to be one who impacts the next generation. May you be famous through my life. Use me! That´s all that matters Lord.

Psalm 47

We may not always think about honoring and respecting our king, or the government in our countries. There may be other things we pay much closer attention to follow after, and even obey. I know there are many things is my life that I automatically let rule me. Dead things, or people just like myself that has no power. - Other than the power I give them without them even knowing it. What I want is to be more aware of God´s beauty, and let him rule my heart the way other things tend to.

How come I don´t always put him first? I think it´s about knowledge and revelation. If I don´t know how awesome he is, it´s harder to let him rule me. Yes, I should have him rule me no matter what. That´s what we are created for. But striving for it doesn´t help since we are fallen. We´re not perfect. Therefore we need help. I know I do! I need help to see the beauty of my King; cause everytime I do; I want nothing but only follow Him.