Psalm 31

For your name´s sake, lead me and guide me.

Oh God, it is still hard for me to have a mindset and lifestyle of always thinking about that its all for you. I know it so well! But its in the everyday decisions I fail. Thank you for being gracious with me, wanting to teach me, and not giving up on me...

For your names sake, you´re not giving up on me :)

Psalm 30

This psalm is the psalm of my life.

When I was around 3 years old, I wanted to be like all the grown ups around me. They received words from God, so I put my tiny finger on a random page in the Bible, and then I marked it with a blue star. But I never quite understood the verse, nor did it mean anything to me.

Untill the day I decided to go to church, for the first time in several years. I had lived a life outside Gods salvation and grace for a long time, but now I had finally given my life back into Gods hands. But as I sat in the church, the same rage that I was used to feel against Christians welled up in me again. I just wanted to scream, knock someone down and run out the church door and never come back. I felt sooo stupid for even entering the church, letting people see me inside the building. But at the same time, I knew I could not deny God anymore. I could not fool him. I was responsible for what I knew. So I cried out for God to help me in the war, feeling torn between heaven and hell, once again. Then I was reminded on the verse I received when I was 3. ¨Novah, remember psalm 30 verse 1. What does it say?¨

The storm calmed. I even had to laugh a silent laugh. Moved in gratefulness to God, and excited about the fact that I was on Gods side now, and I could mock the enemy with God. I was never gonna loose sight of God ever again.

I WILL EXALT YOU O LORD

YOU HAVE PULLED ME OUT OF THE GRAVE

AND YOU DID NOT LET THE ENEMIES TRIUMPH OVER ME.

Psalm 29

One whisper from you and all my hard-work -walls collapsed

One word from your mouth and all my illusions they crashed

Psam 28

God, do not accept that I become one of them. I cannot ever loose you. Fight for me, be strict with me, whenever I start treating you without reverence and love.

Psalm 27

One thing I asked of the Lord,
that will I seek after:
to live in the house of the Lord
all the days of my life,
to behold the beauty of the Lord,
and to inquire in his temple.

YES Lord...that is what I want. That is what I am longing for, to gaze upon your beauty. Being completely captured by what I see in you. Wanting to be more and more like you, in speech, in character, in lifestyle... I always want to be with you. Make me one with you. I want to be your temple. The one you are satisfied to dwell within. Mold me into becoming one.

I am willing.

Psalm 26

Lord, help me walk in integrity

I feel like I used to be much better at it

Now there are new things

coming up to the surface

I know it has been there all along

just that now is the time

for you to deal

with the hidden darkness in me

I want to be pure

I want to be faithful

Teach me to be the woman

you created me to be

a pink warrior

of integrity

Psalm 25

Only you can redeem me

from myself

and my own ways

Help me

when I am proud

I am so confused now

If I saw the whole

picture

or if I only did

what I thought

was right

Help me to again

see

that what is real

I know you will lead

me to truth

for that way

the multitudes

will also see you