Psalm 46

"Be still and know that I am God!"

The verse that has been given to me over and over again; especially in my first year as a Christian. I remember when I was not a Christian; silence was my worst enemy. But as soon as I let God in, I had peace. I finally understood what peace meant! I could be quiet, and there would be no war. Or at least not as before; cause God had won control over me. I had let all my defenses down. He could freely speak to me now.

If everyone... e v e r y o n e could just let their defenses down. An let Him speak. Wow, His kingdom would explode forth.

Psalm 45

I remember standing in church. At that time I was struggling with fear of pride. I felt guilty for raising my arms in the middle of worship. But all I wanted to do was get before the throne. Then in a vision I felt I saw angels holding my arms, leading me to Jesus as I worshiped. Right after the service I read this psalm in my Bible. I to this day have no idea what this psalm really is about. But back then it became a confirmation to me what I had just seen:

"The princess is decked in her chamber with gold-woven robes;

in many-coulered robes she is led to the king;

her virgins, her companions, follow.

With joy and gladness they are led along

as they enter the palace of the king."

(v. 14 - 15)

Psalm 44

"All this has come upon us,

yet we have not forgotten you,

or been false to your covenant.

Or heart has not turned back,

nor have our steps departed from your way,

yet you have broken us in the haunt of jackals,

and covered us with deep darkness"

44: 17-19

"Rouse yourself! Why do you sleep, O Lord?

Awake do not cast us off forever!

Why do you hide your face?

Why do you forget our affliction and oppression?

For we sink down to the dust;

our bodies cling to the ground.

Rise up, come to our help.

Reedeem us for the sake of your steadfast love."

44: 23-26

Psalm 43

I need you God. I´m so messed up. Especially after all happening in Haiti. I´m so sad and angry and so confused. But I do know... deep in my guts. That I can´t run from you. I can´t ignore you. When I run to you again, then you will soothe me. But I don´t want to just yet. I´m offended by all happening. Your love isn´t always how I want it to be. So like a good father does... You let your baby girl run off and be angry without any forced love. For a while.

You and your tough love. Crap. I hate it. But I do love you. Just as all kids love and hate their parents. At the same time. But it´s never really hate. It´s just lack. Lack of sight! Lack of knowledge. I lack so many things. But I don´t want to lack anything of who you are. Anything.

Soothe me. But before you do. Soothe them.

Psalm 42

When I was a child, a very young child, this psalm was my favorite song. Everytime I heard it, it moved something deep inside me. Today that tells me that God and his working spirit is real. How I felt God when I was a kid cannot be ignored nor forgotten.

My soul longs for you God. I may be blinded. I may not always see it´s you I´m searching for. Sometimes I crave something so badly that I grab the first best looking thing that come along. But all those things just makes my craving deeper. Cause it was never "that thing" I wanted. It was you, and all you are.

Psalm 41

I don´t want to forget the poor God. This is something I have been thinking a lot about lately. I don´t think I realize h0w blessed I am. According to others standard, I have nothing. But I know it´s a lie. I have more than enough. I want God to give me good strategies how I can give most effectively, and how I can mobilize and pass on passion for the poor.

"Love thy neighbor is not an advice. It´s a command"

Bono

"God is with the poor! God is with us, if we are with them."

Bono

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L5JxULAX9P4

Psalm 40

"I delight to do your will

Your law is within my heart."

I can say this truthfully today. I want it to last forever!

JESUS, heeelp :D