Psalm 31

For your name´s sake, lead me and guide me.

Oh God, it is still hard for me to have a mindset and lifestyle of always thinking about that its all for you. I know it so well! But its in the everyday decisions I fail. Thank you for being gracious with me, wanting to teach me, and not giving up on me...

For your names sake, you´re not giving up on me :)

Psalm 30

This psalm is the psalm of my life.

When I was around 3 years old, I wanted to be like all the grown ups around me. They received words from God, so I put my tiny finger on a random page in the Bible, and then I marked it with a blue star. But I never quite understood the verse, nor did it mean anything to me.

Untill the day I decided to go to church, for the first time in several years. I had lived a life outside Gods salvation and grace for a long time, but now I had finally given my life back into Gods hands. But as I sat in the church, the same rage that I was used to feel against Christians welled up in me again. I just wanted to scream, knock someone down and run out the church door and never come back. I felt sooo stupid for even entering the church, letting people see me inside the building. But at the same time, I knew I could not deny God anymore. I could not fool him. I was responsible for what I knew. So I cried out for God to help me in the war, feeling torn between heaven and hell, once again. Then I was reminded on the verse I received when I was 3. ¨Novah, remember psalm 30 verse 1. What does it say?¨

The storm calmed. I even had to laugh a silent laugh. Moved in gratefulness to God, and excited about the fact that I was on Gods side now, and I could mock the enemy with God. I was never gonna loose sight of God ever again.

I WILL EXALT YOU O LORD

YOU HAVE PULLED ME OUT OF THE GRAVE

AND YOU DID NOT LET THE ENEMIES TRIUMPH OVER ME.

Psalm 29

One whisper from you and all my hard-work -walls collapsed

One word from your mouth and all my illusions they crashed

Psam 28

God, do not accept that I become one of them. I cannot ever loose you. Fight for me, be strict with me, whenever I start treating you without reverence and love.

Psalm 27

One thing I asked of the Lord,
that will I seek after:
to live in the house of the Lord
all the days of my life,
to behold the beauty of the Lord,
and to inquire in his temple.

YES Lord...that is what I want. That is what I am longing for, to gaze upon your beauty. Being completely captured by what I see in you. Wanting to be more and more like you, in speech, in character, in lifestyle... I always want to be with you. Make me one with you. I want to be your temple. The one you are satisfied to dwell within. Mold me into becoming one.

I am willing.

Psalm 26

Lord, help me walk in integrity

I feel like I used to be much better at it

Now there are new things

coming up to the surface

I know it has been there all along

just that now is the time

for you to deal

with the hidden darkness in me

I want to be pure

I want to be faithful

Teach me to be the woman

you created me to be

a pink warrior

of integrity

Psalm 25

Only you can redeem me

from myself

and my own ways

Help me

when I am proud

I am so confused now

If I saw the whole

picture

or if I only did

what I thought

was right

Help me to again

see

that what is real

I know you will lead

me to truth

for that way

the multitudes

will also see you

Psalm 24

Lord, you are the king

Help me give the world

a glimpse

of what your kingdom

looks like!

Psalm 23

I shall not want.

I shall not want.

I shall not want.

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Psalm 22

Wow this psalm will forever remind me of Jesus on the cross. I never knew that this was what he was referring to.

Psalm 21

I will sing and praise you, no matter what.

But it seems like, when I do wrong, you're not there. And when I do right, the enemy comes and tries to put me down. And he' s good at it. Please good Father: BE my good father tonight, and give me your peace that goes beyond all understanding. Cause you know

You Know

that I will praise you

no matter what.

Psalm 20

May you grant me my heart's desire.

Give me your heart

to be my desires

and fulfill them

Lord

for the sake of your name

and your love

for me.

Amen.

Psalm 19

The law of the Lord is perfect, reviving the soul: the decrees of the Lord are sure, making wise simple: the precepts of the Lord are right, rejoicing in the heart...

But if I did the right thing today father: why does it hurt so bad? I thought you said something. And I was obedient. Despite my own heart. Lord, I am so sad. Overwhelm me with your peace: Cause I know I did what I believe was your will. Help walk as I cry: my eyes are blurred by my own tears.

I do know you will come to my rescue: as so many times before. I do know you don't lie, and that you will bless me for this. You told me so. I rest my case. I want your will.

But it still hurts.